Back Again

Ok so today is Monday and I have slowly ade the conversion to wireless Roadrunner at my house. Due to some technicle difficulties I have been unable to post these past few days. Friday I had my Chemistry Exam which followed Thursday's Caculus Exam. I got my Calculus grade back, and I got a 49.5% which is bad. The class aveage was a 60%, and she only curved it 10%. At my college you have to have a C in order to get credit and I currently have about 68% so I am close to passing, but still not there. This is really sad for me because I had to drop this same class last quarter because I couldn't pass it, and again this quarter I am already struggling. Dropping it again would kill my whole freshman year. If I don't pass it this time I'll have to go back and take Pre Calculus or something. I am really sad about this because I have worked really hard to do well. I don't know yet how I did on my Chemistry exam though I would imagine that I did ok. Today I have a Biology Exam, and tomorrow I have a Logic Exam. Each of those should be hard and based on the presnt trend that means I won't pass. In other news Friday night my Co-leader Brandon turned 25. We had a snow tubing party for him at Perfect North. It was lot of fun, but I just feel akward hanging out with the people that went. I was the youngest person there by at least 4 years. Lately I am just not confidant in myself as far as what I am doing or saying. Its like I can't get much right. Most of my friends are older, and are busy most of the time with their lives. Only three people I hang out with aren't in serious dating relationships. Oh well I guess my time will come as well. Ok now time to talk about the big issue of the week. My sister and my Dad ave been having this fight for a few months now because they both think each other was wrong and so my sister just stopped going over to his house. Well my Dad being the jealous, selfish, and childish man that he is still won't apologize to my sister. Instead of resolving the problem that way he chose to pull out the divorce paperwork and tell my sisster that if she doesn't come visit him more then he could have my mom put into prison for custody violation or something. This may or may not be true, but either way it seems like a rather scetchy way to go about forcing your daughter whos 17 to come visit you. So of coarse this came back to my mom later, and she was pissed. Now heres where the plot thickens. My dad doesn't really have anyone that he hangs out with. I mena he knows people and has friends, but no close friends that he talks to about this stuff. So he talks to me. This has been a problem throughout my childhood, that my dad would bring stuff to me that I have no business being told. He says awful things about my mother, and now he come out with all this stuff about Kate. Well I am completely frustrated with the stuation. I don't really know how to respond because I think my role in my family is to provide support and encouragement. That is difficult for me because I have a divided family. So who knows whats going to happen. Today is campainers and I have 50 cookies for the kids. In addition to that tonight is our big semester planing meeting. I guess it is good that I don't actually have to do anything this semester as far as devotionals for the group or give my testimony or anything. I mean its not a big deal to do that stuff, but its just one less thing I have to focus on. So we shall see what is to come...

Solution: Quit School and move far far away from my family, possibly to Florida, get a job as first mate on a fishing charter and become a devoute atheist, because life is much easier that way. (SIKE)


So I hope you all are doing better than me this week. Remember when I wrote about thatnkign God for the times when its easy because it usually isn't. I should have titled this Post "Exibit A"

in Him
matt